Life is so unpredictable.

Last week got no times to post anything cos was struggling to finish out work as I am now handling all accounts alone. There is some temp reshuffling of accounts as 1 of my coll is going to take maternity leaves in Jan2010. Someone else got to take over a portion of her job while me got to take on a portion of the someone job lor.. What to do?!

Had a very 'INTERESTING, EXCITING' as well as heavy hearted weekend.

Sat - had a quarrel with Mr Tay. Resulting in I went home alone since he refused to talk to me. Of cos all were fine the next day when both of us cool down.

Sun - Heard a piece of news that the Aunt's ex HB had passed away suddenly. He had a fall - on the floor or hit on something not accounted. Only know he got a big bump on his head after the fall. His eldest son want to send him to hospital, he refused and say want to rest on sofa. He sat there, vomitted and went the son want to get him something to eat, he realised the dad was sitting there, motionless. In fact, his body felt cold. The son called for ambulance and when the people arrived, they were told that he had stopped breathing for at least 30min. Still they send him to hospital, hoping to save him but in vain.

I had not seen him at all.
Impression of him were all bad. When I first get to know Mr Tay, they were still together. But he was beating her now n then especially after he drink. After a while, came to know they were in the midst of divorce. In between, heard she went back to him but ran out later again. I am not sure abt the kids custody status but the kids stay with the mum with occassional visits to his place.
I dunno how Aunt feel. Will she be sad? I think most likely will. After all once husband and wife.
As for the kids, I cant see anything from them. I dunno if they hv no feelings or just hiding it. But at age 15 and 12, I bet they do understand what is happening and I think its did hit them quite hard.

Mr Tay commented that life is so fragile and can be gone so suddenly.
I agreed and that is why I always say treasure what you have now.

* But still, both him and his sister arent doing anything regarding their r/s with their parents.*

Steamboat buffet on 17/11/09

We are bothered by what happened recently deep down.
I dun feel right, looking at him, he doesnt feel that right too.
But still.. We went ahead with our dinner celebration.

It is not somewhere with very good atmosphere or somewhere very expensive but its who is having the dinner session with u.

We enjoyed the dinner despite all.. We just want to enjoy the night.

Its drizzling when he came to pick me up otherwise we will want to have the dinner at Punggol Sakura Charcoal grill & Shabu Shabu instead.

So we went to AMK to have porridge steamboat buffet instead.
Its not very fasnastic but for the price we paid, its good enough.
For $13.90, U get to choose 2 soup bases - Chicken, porridge or Tom yum. Then it come with some fried cooked food choices, steamboat spread - prawns, fish, meats, vegetable, vegetables even red dates and wolfberries to add into your soup. The prawns are really fresh too.

Beside, its include drinks and ice cream!

Din take a lot of picture cos was busy eating. Just some to witness the dinner! ha..

The banner at the entrance. Its $15.00 on weekend.
Prawns peeled by Mr Tay. I just need to eat! haha..

Cooked Food - Nugget, fried wanton and Niong hiangFirst round

2nd round where I added the wolfberries into the porridge base - NICE!

Should not let it bother me but...

Talking abt anniversary, talking abt dinner.. Its remind me:

Last week or the week before, I went back HG for dinner with SIL.

Casually, SIL mentioned abt her 2nd DIL not wanting to hv customary wedding.

Mum said no, apparently she has told her will be 5 years later.. and said how can dun have dinner. Like that how to 交代to her parents. Like taking advantage of the gal's side.

I was casually mentioning the chat contents to Mr Tay on sunday during our brunch timing.

He said: she wun let go so easily de.. Its her fav son.. although she did mention its tiring, she dun want to go thru again 2 yrs ago after our dinner.

And he remind me: she did mention how abt dun wan to hv the dinner?! yes! She did mention about us not having the dinner. Its both Mr Tay - The senior one and the junior saying 'NO' - Senior one said both are eldest child in the family, how can dun hv? Junior one saying he got to give a 交代 to my parents. How come she nv thought of taking advantage of my family at that time, how come she dun need to 交代 to my parents at that time?!

Anyway the dinner was go ahead of cos.

Junior Mr Tay added in.. She just see my dad not up cos he isnt working - not surprising. She does hv this attitude of seeing ppl not up as n when, here n there. But its just nv cross my mind till Mr Tay mentioning it.

Well.. Its over, We had our dinner, we had our stay at Presidential suite with jacuzzi tub. So?!

17th Nov - 2nd Wedding Anniversary

Its been 2 years.. Time flies..
It seems just yesterday. Haha..
Memories are still quite fresh in mind.
I still rem bits of details here and there in my head.
Rem the presidential suite - Haha.. think its the one and only time we got to stay in the presidential suite liao.
Rem my wedding gown - how I love the lace embro and the blue trim.
Rem what song did Mr Tay sing to gain himself entry to the house! Haha..

There is still a long road aheading us.

Happy Anniversary Mr Tay!

Chance upon this...

I thought its rather encouraging and meaningful.. Use it to encourage myself. Haha..

One day I decided to quit... quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...
I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
God, I said. Can you give me one good reason not to quit?
His answer surprised me...
Look around, He said. Do you see the fern and the bamboo?
Yes, I replied.
When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds,
I took very good care of them... I gave them light.
I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor... Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo He said.

In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed.
I would not quit. He said.

Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...
But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots.
Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.
He said to me. Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling,
you have actually been GROWING roots I would not quit on the bamboo...
I will NEVER quit on you.

Don't compare yourself to others He said. The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful.
Your time will come, God said to me. You will rise high.
How high should I rise?, I asked.
How high will the bamboo rise?, He asked in return.
As high as it can, I answered
Yes. He said, Give me glory by rising as high as you can.
I left the forest and bring back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never Give up - just keep the faith!!!!!

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